Struggling with infertility adalah salah satu perkara a women will endure. and when its come to Hari Ibu. Kami seperti diberi TAMPARAN yang sangat berbekas dihati dan emotionally disturbed by it. Pada Mothers day ani lah juga akan memberi semangat tahap gaban bagi TTC sisters untuk ikhtiar dpt zuriat. Jealous? Yes! Sedih? Yes!
As for me. Mothers Day ani tah masanya i "kurung diri" from attend any function. Maybe because i rasa Im not belong in it. not qualified. because im not a mother.. yet...
I once attend a mothers day celebrations at mum Side family .. my mum is the 1st child from 16 siblings.. one family overall kami sudah menjangkau almost 60 orang.. imagine that.. cut story short.. semua ibu2 dipanggil untuk memotong kek sambil anak2 mereka menyanyikan lagu mothers day.. and my perasaan masa itu??? berkecai2 sambil menahan rasa sedih..😢 dalam hati berkata.. inshallah one day.. one very fine day.. i will make this day to me mine... qualified to celebrate it with my kids by my side..
This doesn't means i hate Mother Day or against it kah apa.. i just dont fancy it... yet..
*Adui basah tah jua pipi ani.. *sigh*
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